Rubbish Tong

Rainy day=my current mood

2011-05-24T16:21:00.000+08:00

Say that I am fine (just trying to self-comforting) say that I am not sad-i am lying say that I am not angry;it's obviously a lie. Why my results always disappointing? I tried not hard enough? I am always the lousy among the best. And not the most lousy..upgrade level??? Another not more than half year to go before stpm..can I ever make it? Study study study..but what I get is always worse than those who say they don't study..then,pls tell me!! How can you get so high marks??! I am angry cause you put me into this kind of surrounding..i am stuck and dont know how to move on..

But, I wanna give another try..gonna plant a smile :) on my face and face it-whatever challenges that waiting for me!! Give me some strength,ppl.. And most important, God helps me..!

没有人

2011-04-13T17:30:00.000+08:00

今天有够炸到~那个死**惹我!!它死定了!!对!不要怀疑它是个人我就是要写它!因为它半人半**不过说真的它说什么做什么我都不会很care..but被自己的好朋友笑时眼泪都要流出来了~那两个好朋友~让我很无言~好朋友是会为好朋友感到难过生气的人可是她们就不会!!把我当笑话!!这种痛一定要记得~酱以后就不痛了~写在这里我就ok了~还是要微微笑....:-)

Childish! 长不大!

2011-03-03T13:40:00.000+08:00

气死我!!:@都16岁了..像六岁那样!讲话都不用脑!好好跟你讲讲不听!还会说些没脑的话!什么叫做我喜欢???!!你还以为世界只有你啊??!脑可不可以拿来用一下~别人都不会像你酱没大没小!那么大了还天天做小孩子的pattern! Fml! Living under one roof with you make suffocate! 用软的不听硬的也没用!!~你到底是怎样??!你醒醒好不好!社会是现实地!你还没遇到并不代表没有不会!我是不会对你怎样因为我还爱你~如果有一天你惹祸了清记者这是你找的!我不会帮你!你跌倒了就自己起来~这样你才会懂什么是我喜欢就好!!:@:@:@:@:@

Come on! Give me some pressure!!

2011-02-17T20:18:00.000+08:00

Exam is real near the corner. I really need to start my engine. Or RESTART!! Fast fast. Someone give me some pressure let me feel the stress! I don't wanna have last minute stress. I need it now. So that I can start working! Stop day dreaming pls! 戏如人生,人生如戏..this sentence got bit problem. It might be suitable in some cases but not logic for some situation. For example, in korean love drama the main male character is so rich,good looking,capable..and the love story is so perfect. This is a lie! But I just cant stop watching.. And one more thing that I am doubtful is what actually is ideal gas? Is it just a theory? Cause teacher says most of the gases almost have the property like ideal gas but they are not. Then which one is ideal gas o? Mathematic you really problematic! Biology I love you but you make my life miserable!

讨人厌!!

2011-02-04T21:15:00.000+08:00

我很讨厌他们!!他们!!他们!!每次做事情没有交代..又每天假死假死~你做的每件事都是要做给人看~你们俩个是好朋友pattern也一样!!还有你们!我也不想跟你们很熟~pls la~我的认耐也是有limit的~我讨厌你们!

The End of 2010

2010-12-31T20:49:00.001+08:00

2010 is going to end in few hours.. This is a fruitful year for me.. I successfully accomplish my National Service.. And I get to know many new friends there.. I will remember them forever.. And I went to work for the first time in my life.. I got to know some ppl there.. And someone I admire very much.. Cause she is very intelligent and I wish to be like her.. I decided to take form 6.. As a result, I got a very bad results.. I cried. But then now I am laughing again.. When I look back, I take that as one kind of special experience in my life.. I also have the chance to know more friends from different schools. In year 2010, I climbed more than half of the Penang Hill (Bukit Bendera). This was a funny,tiring and enjoying trip. I went for a camp organised by my own church. I learnt many things there. I think I will grow up a little bit spiritually. Many interesting happenned for this year. I went to Melaka with my family. I also went to Star Cruise. Hmm.. Still many more.. But I cant remember some of them now.. I hope next year(tomorrow) will be better! I will always smile to face tomorrow. Yesterday is the past. Work harder for future! God loves me so much!

Raining Day

2010-11-29T22:40:00.005+08:00

Lovely night...hehe...suddenly have the mood to do some 'blogging'..

Penang Trip!!
It was a tiring but fun trip..I counted successfully climbed the Bukit Bendera ba.. I walked for more than 7km..BUT!!! MY WEIGHT IS STILL THE SAME..T.T damn disappointing.. But still I enjoyed it la.. My two best friends walked too fast..they forgot that I am heavy therefore I cant walk fast.. Anyway, I was very lucky..I found a friend having the same stamina with me..Let me introduce my new friend, Hui Wen! haha...

Me and Hui Wen

Form 6 friends

And oh yea..I went to KL last Friday..My aim was to buy books...Vampire Diaries and Biology..but instead of buying those..I bought new shoes..aiks..i want those book badly la!!!!! I found my new favourite food,BIG APPLE!! YUMMY YUMMY~~!!!!

Last but not least..I would like to express my gratitude towards my lovely God!! I NO NEED to change class...hohohehehahaha!!!

Not Strong Enough

2010-11-14T14:50:00.002+08:00

*SIGH* I am not strong enough to keep all in my heart without telling to anyone... So, I smsed my dear fren, ee ling.. I told her everything that I am worrying now.. She adviced me n told me wat is done is done.. cant change.. I need to turn my guilty into motivation n start doing it.. Hope there is miracle..

I m very thankful cox she replied my msg n understand how I feel.. But sth I think she cant understand is the feeling when ur own best friend doesnt understand ur feeling.. I kept thinking why she kept on bring in tat topic that day.. She cant understand my feeling?? I tried not to go bt I know that's not da way. So, I went.. But.. at wat i expected they will talk bout tat.. My tears in my eyes but I dont wanna let them drop..coz that's not me.. I hope I can take all these as a challenge in my life..

I will do better next time.. Thay are my friends..but da one who really know about u is urself.. friends can be categorised into many category..like eeling is my rubbish dump, kexin is my listener to listen to my stupid dreams..haha.. anyway, i still love them.. coz i learnt tat i cant force everyone to understand n to be there for me all da time..

I still trying hard to find back my faith.. the msg told by the preacher is quite useful for me.. i must PRAY.. i must not forget to PRAY.. i must BELIEVE..

-TATA-

Phew~~

2010-11-13T00:27:00.002+08:00

Phew~~~ After so long.. I decided to start blogging again.. And I almost forgot my email n password... Luckily, I still can guess it and get it right..

Hmm..nothing special ba.. L6 life is going to end in few days. My exam results are totally sucks.. And I might need to face something I really don't want and I am scare of.. ( I might need to drop class..) My results are seriouslly a mess.. I think I am lucky.. Cause I have a friend who really trying hard to comfort me and calm me down..She doen't talk much cause she knows very well I don't need them..she understands me well enough..So, I know and I really appreciate..she shows her supports with her actions.. I LOVE you my dear friend..
I really don't want to change class.. Oh my GOd... how m I gonna face it.. maybe it will be a disaster for me.. I know very well that from now on I will have nightmares every night.. I need a friend who can really understand this kind of feeling to be with me now.. But who? God pls help me.. T.T
If I really need to change class pls grant me the stength to accept the truth.. I know this is what I deserve to get for not studying hard..

I still wanna complain something here..( cross fingers, hope nobody read this) I really really really hate when someone who doesnt understand anything give so many comments and opinions and fake statements ( for me there ARE FAKE STATEMENTS) so pls don say anything la..if really wanna say, say them to another person and when I am not there.. I scare I cant control my brain then I will freaking hate you.. >.< Don't make me guilty, pls..

Life is not easy nowadays.. Parents are pushing me.. They want me to study real hard and get beautiful results.. She thinks that I didnt put in effort to study..so,starting from now I will really try hard n study hard.. But if I still get bad results... hmmmmmmm.... Pls don't!!! /.\

I am trying hard to not to show my sadness in front of anyone..I wanna hide it..but someone doesnt seems to understand.. I am facing some many personal problems now.. Hope the angel in me will win!!!

I really need to find back my faith now..I am losing it.. I don't want to be a lost sheep.. God help me..Amen...

-END-

What happen to me..??

2010-07-05T19:51:00.002+08:00

Lately, I feel so out of place...I got annoyed easily..At first I put da blame on others..But after thinking clearly,I found out that maybe it's my fault.. After so many years,so many memories we shared I just cant be childish and say I don wanna be ur fren anymore. Can I??

I wanna write out what I feel..Izzit alright?? Must I keep everything inside myself juzt because I dont want to hurt others? But do they care like I care?? This friendship means a lot to me...I know..But do they know..?? Ok..I decided..After all I dont think they will visit my blog...XD

I cant stand it anymore..For me..she is my best fren just like others..But how come..?? I feel like I m just a back-up fren for her..She will find me when she is in troubles or she need sth..I agree that she is naive n has a good heart...But now..?? I donno...What she said to A tat day really made me felt like she is so FAKE!!!!! OMG!!!! They put a clear line there between us.. But for me..I always over crossed da line..I take everyone equally... She is so so so...Ok,she has da freedom to choose..But can don so obvious ma..?? She really treats ppl differently...
What happened that day,I really mind..Does she even care others feeling?? She only cares tat she wanna go...Can she stands in my shoe and think..???

Another friend of mine..I tot she could understand me better..But she actually the same...I just wanna find someone to share bout what I m tinking...Cant she support me??? Or just lie?? and she tat i m right..?? so tat i can feel better??? Aikz...And someone she is in my group...(if there really a line between us la)

K la...i finish fa lao sao le...Hope after this I will be more 'BIG SQUARE' and try to think positive..Mayb I should not da ME now..I should change..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No friends will stay forever..I should know tis.. T.T

Stress!! Tension!!

2010-05-29T12:42:00.002+08:00

Form 6 is a nightmare??? Gosh....Form 6 is totally different...teachers gave so many homework but some teachers wont even wan us to hand up those homework....Da problem is even u know tat teacher won check those hw u stil will feel da nid to finish it...Ytd i put all my hws together on table n try to finis them...BUT i DONO how to do!!!!! PA's essay title is KENAIKAN MINYAK...i gt some info from Net,i tink i can write it..MUET's essay is about 'Academic Excellence Guarantees Success In Life'. Tis is a disaster..i dono how to write...I dono i shud agree or not...=.=

Chem n Bio..i read so many times i stil cant memorize da facts..SHIT!!! Ah Chai faster giv me da chem book...PA is lik sej...damn bored la!!!
Bcox of so stress up i kept on eating ytd..Wuwu...i know i gona b triple fatter..NObody wants me...so kolian...

These days i keep on asking myself is God fair.?? N i cant get da ans n kinda lik gona lost dy....Times like tis i cant find some1 who is supporting me...she keeps on giving me negative answers...I m so lost,blur n sad...Who n what i really nid in this world..???

Migraines And The Risk Of Stroke

2010-05-18T22:18:00.002+08:00

As many as 17% of women and 6% of men have experienced the debilitating pain of a migraine. Research shows that woman who have migraines accompanied by their distinctive 'aura' symptoms are at a greater risks of having a stroke than those who don't have migraines.

Migraines headaches are caused by inflammations of the arteries surrounding the brain. Other arteries inside the brain may spasm during an attack as well, temporarily cutting off circulation, thus adding odds of a stroke.

Abnormalities in the lining of arteries may cause blood to clot more readily. In some rare cases, arteries leading to the brain may tear more easily. These tears may cause vessels to narrow and clots to form.

Low-dose aspirin has been shown to decrease stroke risks in women over 45 and prevent migraines too. Doctors can help you reduce the risks associated with abnormal arteries. Maintaining healthy blood pressure is one way, but also ask your physician to order a routine blood test to determine whether you have markers for increased clotting.

(My MUET 1st presentation..)
Taken from Reader Digest

Teachers start to teach..??

2010-05-18T22:13:00.001+08:00

L6SBIO1...tis is my class...acs..T.T i miss my frens la...juz left me,jun n kexin only...so boring!! cant do monkey stuffs in classroom anymore...today teachers start to teach dy...bio is so sux!! n da teacher...ermmm....no comments yet..still nid to observe first...Miss Noami..?? 1st day oledi ask us to prepare for presentations!!! OMG!!!!! MUET leh...speak english..?? i m gona get malu in front of everyone..damn sked...

Start to buy all books needed by teachers n spent RM200++ n ther is still some books tat i haven buy..>.<...gona pokai dy la...

GOD BLESS ME!!!

Update??

2010-05-09T21:09:00.002+08:00

Hmm....my buddy asked me y no update my blog..?? Da ans is obvious...i m lazy...nowadayz i m lazzy to turn on my computer n surf da net...actually,i supposed to write tis blog ytd..bt...for da same reason(lazy) i didnt..!!

Well,firstly,ytd is my last day of working..(officially) i begged aunty n felt guilty...i tot if go work i won b able to celebrate mother's day wit my mum...bt then,it turned up tat i would b able to celebrate it n go work...cox my mum reached home early...>.< tat made me feel bad..cox i wana go work...i wana finish doing my 1st job...aikzz.... i gona miss wan ying!! n of course others...tho,they all are crazy n hamsap....

secondly,tomolo i gona go acs to register as a f6 student..!!!! argh!!!!!!! i hav no choices!!!!!! i hate to tink it!!!!! i really hav no idea how m i gona survive ther..a moron lik me...T.T

thirdly,i stil feel sad cox i failed my car test...i m sked...till now...i dono when wil i b ready to go again....

zz...how leh....i start to miss my workin life le...at least ther i oledi had some frens tho i nid to b extra careful when mixing around wit them...life goes on..time runs!!!! i m really a lalang...cant decide n stand firm or wat i want!!! example: i was bored wit my job bt now i miss it n wana o bek ther again.

k la...me now very sad,fan,uncertain,missing someone...n...bla bla bla bla....

Never Alone - Lady Antebellum

2010-04-16T23:20:00.001+08:00

(Verse 1)
May the angels protect you
Trouble neglect you,
And heaven accept you,
When it's time to go home
May you always have plenty,
Your glass never empty
Know in your belly
You're never alone.

(Verse 2)
May your tears come from laughing
Your fine friends worth having
With every year passing
They mean more than gold
May you win but stay humble
Smile more than grumble
And know when you stumble
You're never alone

(Chorus)
Never alone
Never alone
I'll be in every beat of your Heart when you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn't goodbye.
My love will follow you
Stay with you
Baby, you're never alone

(Verse 3)
Well, I have to be honest
As much as I wanted
I'm not gonna promise
The cold winds won't blow
So when hard times have found you,
And your fears surround you
Wrap my love around you
You're never alone

(Chorus)

(Verse 4)
May the angels protect you
Trouble neglect you
And heaven accept you
When it's time to go home,
And when hard times have found you,
And your fears surround you
Wrap my love around you
You're never alone.

(Chorus)

My love will follow you
Stay with you
Baby, you're never alone

Hmmm....Bored..

2010-04-11T23:04:00.000+08:00

Today is my 3rd day of working...N I told jiejie i don wan do full day le...but....SAD!!!!!!! n disappointed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Jiejie say tis is not wat she can choose..it's a must..everyweek one day she off...die lor...T.T
Tis mean tat i nid to work full day another day lor..wuwuwuwu...fang guo wo ba...i don wan earn tat RM40 le la...aikz...afta finish workin for two weeks i won choose to work as PT Promoter le...>.<

Today i found out tat Uncle Kumar is from Nepal..n another guy who oweys call me lenglui(dao diao) is from bangladesh...he is very noisy n sometime annoying....oweys kacau me...Ah!! N one more guy I dono from wher..he is da most pity guy le...others pedatang asing know to speak malay bt he cant...so,he kena bully lor....He finished his works then Uncle Kumar asked him to help cashier...his frens laughed at him...tsk tsk tsk....i wanna tok to him de..bt he cant understand..suang le lor..haha

Aunty Letchumy aso gt scolded today..hehe...she busy chatting wit Uncle Kumar then gt one aunty scolded her dono automatic ckit asyik cakap cakap..marila tolong Yang anggak!! lol...funny lor...I c Yang so rajin make me guilty nia...He aso lik very busy bt still help me...He blur blur make me aso blur...he told me 30.4.2010 exp de ice cream oledi expired cant sell le...i don dare ask many times...i dy say not yet a..he insisted cant...then i ma thought mayb near to exp date so cant le lor...manatau jiejie say Yang aso blur le actually can...aiyoyo..This Yang made me to stay in da big refrigerator findin ice cream ytd for so long...apala....

Ah!! Today is my cousin bdae lor...Happy Birthday yar!!!! His daddy n mummy (da jiu & da jiu mu) come n bought ice cream..haha...

And got one guy same Ns camp wit me de..bt till now i dono his name..he aso selling ice cream lor...in camp he neva tok to others except his gf...bt now if i ask he wil tok le..not bad..haha...he can memorize all da ice cream price...geng lor...ahaha.....

Tat's all for today!! (^^)

First Day of Working After I Live On This Earth For 18yrs

2010-04-09T23:00:00.002+08:00

Argh!!!!!!!!!!! Tired!!!!!! Leg pain la....wuwuwu...today is my 1st day working at The Store...as a part time promoter at Walls ice cream department...

The full time promoter(jiejie) teach me wat to do...although v tok n laugh..n she mentioned her name..i still cant remember..>.< next time gonna ask again...hehe..hope she wont get annoyed...

After tat,aunty called me to make sure all da refrigerator is full with ice cream..so,she brought me to upstairs n teached me...Aunty go bek le...leave me alone...bfore tat she asked a guy named Yang to take care of me..>.< cox me first time work...so memalukan & mesiasuikan...hehe....Walls ice cream is put too high!!!! I cant reach!!! So,dgn muka tembok..i asked Yang to help me...huhu...luckily he is a good guy..YEAH!!! haha..meet a good ppl hapi....

Then,whole day (3hrs) me stand ther watching n asked ppl,"Want buy ice cream?" and smiled for 3hrs...aikzz....10.00pm...yeah...bell rings...go bek time..yahoo!!!! Sing Loo waited me ther...n v go 'punch card' together....and END~~~

Tomolo work full day....from 10.00am til 10.00pm....me gona die,hope me can tahan!!!!!!

Unlucky day..!!

2010-03-30T00:26:00.002+08:00

wuwuwu,ytd (no oledi 0000) was an unlucky day!!! Olllddd car!!! My mum,me n bro went to Giant by our car..we shopped hapily..n who knows..when we wana go back,my mum tried to open da car door bt it didnt work...no alarm sound...Okie,my mum opened it usin key n tried to start da car...n nth happen..da car cant b started..v tried tried n tried.. At last,decided to call my dad..n my dad told us to start again..actually he aso donno wat to do.. He came to Giant by motorcycle..From my house to Giant is dang far summore wit bike..aikkzzz...
My mom asked my bro to call our uncle to fetch us...bt my aunt answerd da call n said uncle is sick n now asleep..SHIT!!! then how wor..?? I was oledi panic..wuwuwu..someone pls help!!! Then,decided to call another uncle..da phone rang many times..mayb he is oledi in bed..btw,da time is 10+ near to 11..And luckily,he answered n promised to come...
A malay uncle with his wife n baby approachd us..n asked wat happpend? He is very kind..he checked for us n then called his mechanic frens..Minutes later my 1st uncle who is sick came..n i was surprised..i tot he won come..T.T my mum called bek to other uncle askd him not to come..
Da mechanic gang came...tis time Indian pula..haahaaa...1 Malaysia...afta they did sth(cost us RM20) da car alive again...fuhhhh....n v can savely go bek....bfore tat my mum gave RM10 to da Malay baby gal..cox they helped n accompanied us..THANKSSS!!!!

I tink I don dare to go far wit da car again...++

My fren..Yushuan

2010-03-19T22:38:00.006+08:00

Reached home at 6.00pm++....supposed to come bek ytd..bt bcox of wana meet yushuan i decided to postpone it..hehe...and yar...finally i hav da chance to meet her at Mid Valley..Bt i was really soli..bcox i m late...wuwu...really soli...luckily she is not angry n she understands tat i nid to wait for my uncle to fetch me...v start our 'date' by havin some desert at Sweet Chat...n then continue shopping...i wantd to buy da 'Smiley' tshirt...bt it's too expensive!!!! V captured some photos...i introduced my aunt(hock yuen) to yushuan...~~hehe....v end our 'date' wit a hug..i gona miss her so much!!!!

It has been a long time~~

2010-03-19T22:29:00.004+08:00

Owh...i stopped blog+ing for so long...since i went to kem kepimpinan kegemilangan for my ns...
I have oledi finished my ns...when i knew tat i was chosen i m...so so so sad...n i don wan go..bt when it's time for me to leave ther..i cried..cox i know i gona leave my frens ther n continue my own life...bt all those days in camp...will be da best memories!!! Till now,i still miss them..n those memories flashed back in my brain...

2010-A new life..^^

2010-01-01T01:23:00.002+08:00

First of all..thx to the Heavenly Father tat i peacefully go through my 2009...2009 is a hectic n busy year...cox of SPM..wuwu...bt...i dy finished tat "important" exam...wuhuuu...

Today..8.00pm...
i successfully folo my mum go to church..k..usually i wont go...cox most of them r aunties n uncles..but today i tink tat its da last day of 2009..so i went..without any frens..sit ther quietly n listen...haha...(satisfied)...When da service ends, a fren of mine,min hui asked me wanna go countdown? I said no cox she wanna go with her frens n i dono them..strangers..but i regret n said wanna go but she changed her plan...So,cant go..T.T

When i arrived in front of my house,my aunt invited me to go countdown at Lumut..N i said OK!! We went..Most happy is..my aunt gave me RM100 bcox give tuition to her son..but i m guilty...cox..my tuition class onli last for one week+few days only...I don wana accept da money..but she insisted!!!So, THANKS!!!!!

OHhhhhh...a new year...
My Plans..!!!

1.After come bek from ns,i wil go to take my car license.
2.I wana study really hard this year if i choose to go f6.So that i can get dentistry course.
3.Try to be more active in church..(try)

n so on...

A song~~

2009-12-31T16:33:00.002+08:00

Welcome To Mylife-Simple Plan

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Tho,tis song is quite old..haha...means tis time exist for quite a time..i m addicted to it nowadays...mayb it reflect my mood n thoughts..But its nice!!!! love it...
Gona go National Service soon...T.T

Gloomster

2009-12-25T21:55:00.002+08:00

Argh~~!!! Wat a gloomy Christmas...It suppose to be filled with happiness...Wher goes wrong..??? Why I cant feel da cheerfulness of this blessed festival..??

Its starts from da morning till da nite..T.T
I wana play piano too...bt I m not granted with tat talent..tho,i learnt n attend classes..I still cant play well..See them so pro in instrument..I felt super sad + jealous..Aikz..really have no idea wat am I good in..><

Evening:
Helped my bro n Lin Han clean n prepare fish for their BBQ nite 2nite..Bt i dun plan to go..Cox my two frens don wanna go..Honestly,I feel uneasy every time gather together with church members...Dono why..I just don like..tat's all..Their way of treating ppl make me feel uncomfortable...N a 'guy' ther..i totally dislike him...bt wat to do..my frens are his buddy..>
Nite:
I argue with mum...but i hav no bad intention..my words dont mean anything..><
I just sometimes cant understand..but then who really understand me? We seldom talk n whenever we talk u won pay attention or v will argue cox of different opinions...Aikz...Its real hard for me...I wana live alone...so pls...let me go college...n i can b far from u ppl...T.T

Wat The Heck!!!!!

2009-12-17T20:16:00.002+08:00

Today..extremely sux!! i wana shout out as loud as i can!!
Firstly,someone told me tat da one i tot was my best fren changed her camp to another place..kinda annoyed...cox she din tell me... Aikz..at first when i heard tat v r in same camp i felt haapy...cox it is really not easy to b in da same camp for PLKN.. bt then...she transfered to another camp...somemore din inform... luckily another fren told me..if not..i tink..when i go to dat camp n find out ther surely will feel more sad then now...
And then i smsed my fren n told her..i said...原来朋友是这样的。。。我还笨笨的把她当成好朋友！！！！！ She replied me n say..tat's FREN! argh!! i m getting lost... The friendship tot is not as beautiful as i tot... wat can i say...suang le ba....cox mayb v won hav a chance to meet again..

Secondly, today go do body check up for my NS, da eat shit de nurse so kanasai!!!! Me mana tahu nid to isi 1st lor...later isi salah ma cham...bt....>>>> ther is aso nice nurse ther... tis world is not so bad...ther is bad ppl..ther is aso good ppl geh..haha....when i tok to dat bad nurse i still smilin..cox no point showin toilet face to those ppl...Smilin make da world warmer!!! So,>>to tat toilet face nurse pls smile n b sincere in ur duty!!!!

to miss ajun>>> if u really can skip ur NS..GONG XI GONGXI!! n remember to treat me burger afta i finish my ns,k..tho, i quite dissapointed cox left me da onli 1 goin...haha...bt pls pray for me too..^^

to miss erin..>> jiayou in ur first job yea!!

Good luck for myself too!!
SMILE!! CHEERSS!!!

REST IN PEACE

2009-11-03T20:05:00.002+08:00

2day..when opened da newspaper~saw a big news..(consider big)
3 students from UTAR been swept away at waterfall...seeing da pictures of their parents..make me feel extremely sad...n without myself realizing..tears drop from my eyes..tho,i donno them bt i feel sad n pity for them..

they din noe tat their journey of life will end there...they tot tat they wil enjoy their weekends..only God knows wat will happen at the next moment..
tat news make me realize tat life is totally UNPREDICTABLE!!!
You may plan for everything..ur future..ur dream..bt you do not know whether can them come true...

Lastly, to those 3 victims, rest in peace..hope God will guide you there..n hope you can stay peacefully bsides Him..

15 days more..i m going to sit for my spm..
pray hard...hope Jesus grant me some knowledge..

TATA

mY DusTbin area

2009-10-06T23:34:00.004+08:00

2day at schol gt annoyed by a fren..
actually...i hav no other meanin..dono why she act like tat...

Fren : tomolo i wil present that..
I : u cumin 2molo? i tot u said u wan skip..
Fren : wo yao lai jiu lai la..(with annoying expression)
I : oOo...(zadao)

i said sth wrong?i aso dono..then make me no mood anymore...one gang of ppl tokin ther..i chose to read newspaper at my place...bcoz she was happily tokin ther..
don understand her..suan le ba...

ps: if u read tis,don mind it..no offence...

HOME

2day at home did nth..did some add math..n tat's it..i wil regret..i know tat..
when daydreaming..i suddenly tink of him..so miss him..i know he did well now..feel proud of him..but i m aso sure dat one day he will forgive me..wat's our relationship? fren,best fren or bro&sis? felt confused...
argh!! bt now not da time to tink bout dat!!! TINA!!!tink of ur spm!!tink of ur own future!!!

Exam...

2009-10-05T22:03:00.002+08:00

long time no write things here le...aikz..these days teacher kip on givin bek exam papers...my results r so sucks...i tot tat i wil get beta...bt those results really disappointing...

kip on askin myself y others can,i cant.?my hard works..dont giv any feedbek.. mayb i should b more hardworkin ba...bt i really cant..really easy distracted.. hate mum kip on askin me to study..anyway i must go to f6..no matter how my resuts are...so,wat's da point..?? sej make me wan vomit..read hundred times aso cant remember...

HOW??????????
WHAT TO DO????????!!!!!!!!!

now..i dy not payin so much time prayin...mayb cuz i din get wat i wan..feel so guilty..i noe must keep faith in LORD..bt,i m juz a 17 yrs old gal..i hav weaknesses.. i cant really feel anythin now..

help me...
i don wana b da stupiest in clas..
i don wan
i don wan

tis yr spm..stil left one month nia..wit those marks i sure won get straight A's in spm..
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

clever ppl won understand wat i feel!!! therfore,their advices i cant accept...
i m stubborm..
wait til u get those marks u will understand...

-END-

New Realisation

2009-09-14T15:10:00.002+08:00

i realized 2day tat no frens tat will stay 4ever at ur side..haha..everyone changes cox of many factors...u takin her/he as ur bestie bt tat doesnt mean tat she should...i oweys play a role as a dustbin among my frens...bt..my dear frens,tis 'dustbin' wil b full one day...by dat time i might nt b so kind dy...hahaha..bt by now i stil can stand n fight against it...

asked myself..who will not leave u 4ever..??suddenly pop up an ans said by my pastor..'Jesus won leave u bhind...He knows all ur need..' feel lik i do dy ans dy..bt i m stil not satisfied...i nid time to rethink..haha

life...how to make it simple..??day by day..i lost my ways of tinkin...

Wat u tInk oF my liFe..??

2009-08-31T21:12:00.000+08:00

haLo..2day is da last day of holidae..n ....2ml is TRIAL!!!!....wuwuwu...y time runs..???cant it walk slowly....2day i m suppose to go wit my church bro n sis to 'bu tao'....bt ytd bcos of readin KOMSAS til very late..mornin i cant wake up...i missed a chance to work for God..(pls forgive me)

bt my cousins r lucky!!bcos of i m not going then can stay n play at my house..cos i can look afta them....my bro n mum went...they came bek at 6pm..bt they go at 6am...so 'wei da'...hahahahaha....my bro bcum 'pink pig' bcos of skin burn...so pity....hahahahahahaha............

my uncles n aunts came bek from holiady le....of course they bought some souvenir for us...
n..my little cousin wana show da monkey she bought...

n lastly..i m dyin bcos of SEJARAH!!!@@@

Happy Day

2009-08-31T00:01:00.000+08:00

hehe..2day go church i hav paid attention o...i was not playing with my handphone..i was listening...tho i m little bit distracted la...bt nex time i wil try harder...cuz i really wan to live in God!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2ml is my lsat holiidae..then trial SPM le!!!!!!!!!wah...so fast...i not yet finish studyin...gona die le...bt i told myself hav faith in Jesus n i reap wat i sow...so,its fair if i don get a good results..bt at least pls let me PASS!!

2day i m super lazy to go to physics tt...i m hopin ther is no tt..then suddenly my fren says hey 2day no tt leh..(i m super HAPPY) then i asked y leh..??coz sir's mum passed away...
Oh My God!!!!i m shocked...i m feelin sorry for sir...my mood suddenly tuned into sadness...to sir's mum...Rest In Peace....

now i wan go study my bm komsas n sejarah le....Bye bYe

Miracle

2009-08-29T22:58:00.000+08:00

yesterday(28.8.2009) i went to teluk batik for hagen tan 'jien chen hui'...i m touched wit his story..his life is so blessed by God..i realised God loves us first..v nid to do sth to show dat v lov Him too...i wan to work for Him n shine for Him..bt..i m a human..i hav weaknes..i hope Jesus wil use me..i wan to b His disciples..

My Prayer..
qing ai de a ba tian fu..wo gui bai ni mian qian..xian zhu ni qing qiu..zhu a..qing ni xi jin wo de zui..wo shi ge zui ren..zhu a..qiu ni yong wo...yong wo de kou..hao rang wo de kou zhi su shuo zhu ni de hua yu...yong wo de noa...hao ran wo neng gou xiang dao hen hao de fan fa lai chuan ni de fu yin..zhu a..qiu ni rang wo neng gou han bie de fei ji tu du de ren bu yi yang..ran wo neng gou huo chu zhu ni de shen ming..
fen zhu ye su de ming
a men...

HagenTan is juz lik an angel sent to me by Jesus ytd..his praisin make me more confident n noe tat Jesus is fair...i noe tat Jesus oweys lend me his hand when v nid it...
Hope God bless BroHagen n Me...Let us work for God n live for Him!!!!jia you!!

2009-08-19T22:54:00.000+08:00

Wednesday-tho many hws 2day..bt at last chosen to go..i noe i won regret as i learnt sth ther..sumtime i wonder y they can sacrifice everthing n work for Him?as for me,i don really noe wat i wan in da future bt i stil havent ready to put down everything n serve Him wit al my heart n soul..i m stil attracted to $$ n entertainment around me..

but i wil pray n ask Him to lead me to the best way...i LoVe Him bt i m selfish..plz 4giv me,my dear LOrd..